STUPID ME This has been the darkest night of my life.... im sorry guys if i have to pour out everything here... this is the only place i can pour out everything... i dont want to burden my friends with all these problems in me... once upon a time i had a relationship... it was really wonderful... exciting... and sweet... we gave our all in what we call "US"... everyday i make a point that i could tell her how much i love her... sometimes it may just be in words but most of the time, i made her know how much i love her in my actions... ,ost of the time, i give her surprise cards sealed with a kiss and a scent of my favorite perfume... sometimes, out of nowhere and without any occasion, i surprise her with a single rose hidden at my back...she on the other hand makes it a point to make me feel so special and blessed... with her hugs, my day becomes complete... we were said to be one of the perfect couples... Everyday, my love for her became strong... and because of that, the kevin who was really flirty, playful, became so faithful and trusting. day by day, i became more and more romantic, telling her how much she means to me, letting her see how much value she has in my life... letting her know that she is the only one i have... I built my dreams around her, i made promises that i will never abandon her... i made a vow, i gave her my heart.... We became inseparable, despite the obstacles we are facing, we stood up, never surrendered... we became strong... for us, we didnt have to please people... we just have to know that we only have each other and no other person in the world can ever destroy what we have... Many unforgettable memories came, one of those was "Broadway" we became stars in that certain point of the show. in gala night, while we were having our duet, i,out of nowhere, took out an eternity ring. infront of the audience, i inserted the ring in her finger, i hugged her so tight so that she would know what i really want to say with my actions, "i will love her forever...always" that was the meaning of my action... we ran inside the back stage...she cried, and hugged me... at first i was shocked because for some reason i do not know why she even cried... then i realized that it was tears of joy flowing down her eyes...i told her what i used to tell her when she cries "tahan na baby ko... tahan na sweetheart, andito lang ako..." Soon i had to graduate, i had to leave her... but not for long, for we promised each other that we would meet at the same school ill be having.... it would only take two years for us to be apart.. but still, it was the saddest part of our life. The night before i graduated, we saw each other at her friend's party... we sat at the field near the party ground.... we just talked there, telling each other that nothing can break us apart... we promised each other not to cry of the fact that ill be graduating.... but i was weak, i cried... she cried too... after that, she took out a ring, an eternity ring, which was identical to the ring that i gave her... she whispered in my ear the words, "surprise, kahit alam mo na na may surprise ako... i love you forever sweetheart" months passed, we were in different schools... i entered college... she was left in highschool... it was hard for us.... but it didnt stop us from loving each other.... but then, what i thought was not going to end became just an illusion... she changed... she became bored of me.. she became cold... but i understood her... i thought it was because she just busy... but, i never thought it was because of some reason.... a reason that i couldnt take... that reason, broke my heart.....it was my birthday celebration with her that i knew something unfathomable... we had a cool off after that... after a week, i began to stat again getting her back in my life... i went to her house, serenade her... i wanted her back in my life... she was back... she came back.... but it was shortlived.... she had a change of heart..... -i never felt so alone,so stupid, so disgusted with myself... i tried and tired to win her back... even to a point where in i even gave up my pride... i went to her and serenaded her... but the thing is she never came back... and i was marked "obsessed" - it was hard for me.... my life, my dreams, my reasons for fighting. my everything just disappeared.... in just a blink of an eye... what we built for 1 year 8 months, was only destroyed in just weeks...or days... or even hours.... right now if you ask me... im not the kevin i used to be.. im failing...im falling....i made myself believe that i was happy amidst those things... even my friends thought i was moving on... yeah, im the greatest actor for i can let other people see the irony of what i trully feel... and you know what hurts the most? its the fact that i only knew now that the one i called forever is now in the hands of another guy.... im shattered, disgraced, hurt, with no one but myself to be blamed for.... now, im asking myself, where did i go wrong? now i know that loving too much makes us real damn stupid.... | 
